zen and the art of writing checks

i used to be a terrible bill-payer. even when i did have enough in the bank to cover the unopened envelopes. one thing i discovered is that i hold my breath while actually writing out a check. i end up breathless, gasping, or rushing with my scribble getting more and more illegible. unless i notice that i’m basically in a panic. we are bleeding our life blood! scream the insecure voices in my internal community. deep breaths even better